RandomlyRoaming

Laundry wasteland

2011-04-09T20:06:00.001-05:00

Ugh! I just don't eant to be here doing laundry. There is a drink out there with my name on it. Besides, I'm out of change for the gumball machine.

Good morning Fort Lauderdale

2011-02-18T09:07:00.001-05:00

At the beach watching the sun. Behind me, two twinks and a thirty-something jock are having a threeway. Ugh!

On the move

2007-04-29T19:38:00.000-05:00

I'm moving. My landlord has decided not to renew my lease for another year and I've got until the end of May to be outta here. I'm pissed off! I guess it is their place and if they don't want to renew my lease, they don't have to. Part of the reason they aren't renewing my lease is so their buddy can move in. I'm not happy. I've been looking at places over the weekend and I'm sorry, but $1,200 for a 2 bedroom just isn't gonna work for me. I'd pay that for a mortgage, but not for rent.

My boyfriend said I could move into his house for a bit until I find a place, but I'm not sure if that would be a good idea. I mean, if we move in together because we want to, then it would be great, but not just because I've got to be outta here. Make sense? Hmmm, then again I do love him, his house and his neighbourhood. I'm just doubting it is a good idea since we've only been going out for 8 months. I'm an old fashioned whore I guess.

Haven't done much on the photography front, but I'm workin' on it. I've got a few irons in the fire and I'm desperately trying to get some interviews going for my website PornForPatric.net but so far no bites. I guess all those articles I wrote for the foreign press (Haitian newspapers) don't amount to much. Hmmm...maybe that "Cooking with the pornstars" webcast idea would work. Do pornstars cook? Do they even eat? Something to think about.

I'm gonna leave y'all with a photo I took recently. I just like the rather large package that shows on this fellow. It wasn't inentional and my boyfriend was standing next to me when I took the photograph. It just sorta happened. Still, I do like it.

I hate being sick!

2007-04-07T19:04:00.000-05:00

Ugh! Woke up this morning sneezing and wheezing. Great way to spend a beautiful spring day. I tried to put the time to good use, doing laundry, cleaning the house and taking naps when I needed to. I do want to see my boyfriend tonight, so I've downed a battleship sized pill that has dried my sinuses. I am, however, also sick to my stomach. I feel like I've got a blender in there. Nancy was right, best to just say no to drugs.

I wanted to hit the beach today and get some pics of the spring breakers. Not "oooh, look at his ass" type pics, but "essence of spring break" pics. You know, people having fun, playing frisbee on the beach, carrying cases of beer back to "party central" in the HoJo. Maybe tomorrow.

I'm gonna hit you guys with a couple more pics from PrideFest tomorrow. In the meantime, this is my absolute favourite pic from that day. A couple in the sunset light that were just smooching and smiling for an hour. I love those times when you don't even notice the passage of time with your man. Time just stands still for you while you bask in each other's affections. Anyway, here's the pic:

Rising from the futon to post

2007-04-06T19:11:00.000-05:00

Hooray! Life has finally calmed down to a point where I'm back and I'll be back on a regular basis.

Let's see...what is new. Uh, I found a man. Nice guy, clean cut, good in bed and built like Brad Pitt. Needless to say, I'm a happy man.

Work has been going well. Had some financial troubles, but all in all things have worked out okay. I'm just holding out for the next four months. Once August is here, all will be well and I can start actually spending money instead of hording it.

I hit the PrideFest and took a bunch of pics. Unfortunately, I was incredibly sick and had to pump myself full of pills just to make it there. If you went and saw a guy with a camera walking around sneezing, coughing and blowing his nose constantly...that was me! I didn't even make it to Palm Beach for their Pride since my car is being expensively repaired at the moment.

Not much else to report. Oh, Lucy the Wonder Dog is fine and chewing on a shoe at the moment. No new pics of her to share, but I'll find something soon.

I'm leaving y'all with a photo of a wonderfully nice couple I met at the PrideFest in Fort Lauderdale this past March. They were great to talk with and I'd love to drag them into the studio and photograph them sometime. I'll post more of the PrideFest photos on Sunday.

Interim Update - Photos, gay pride and schtuff

2007-01-28T10:11:00.000-05:00

Hey y'all. I don't know if anyone will even see this, but here goes.

I'm alive and kickin'. Still happily involved with Delicious D. Things are going well. I'm sort of worried all the time that something bad is going to happen, but nothing does. It is kind of strange dating him. I wasn't looking for any sort of relationship. In fact, I was purposely avoiding dating anyone since i was hurting from my last LTR. I almost missed the bus on Delicious D because I left him hanging for months while I sorted out how I felt about him, about The Ex, dating, being single, etc. I give him a mad amount of credit for putting up with my crazy ass.

On the work front, all is sort of doing well. Porn for Patric is up and running. The response has been good, but I'm still having trouble with getting people to link to me, companies to provide me content, etc. I'm planning on shooting original content for my site at some point this year. I had hoped to be doing that already, but life got in the way.

I'm going to give y'all some advice: if you can, go to the beach about 6:30 in the morning. Bring your cocoa, coffee or Red Bull, park your ass on the sand and look out over the water. For the next 30 minutes you'll be treated to an amazing light show in the sky. I'm starting to get up early almost every morning and hit the beach before dawn. A nice long walk, then I sit and watch the sunrise. Something about doing it just makes my days go better. As if the light of the sunrise burns away all of my fears, worries and troubles.

I've been taking photos of the sunrises and even roped in a neighbour (muchas gracias Grant) who was running on the beach. Check 'em out.

Oh, I've been trying to get some sort of grant since I had an idea of hitting 20 pride festivals in the US and photographing them. Sort of a "Gay Pride Across America". I might just do it out of my own pocket, but if I can find a grant or something I'd prefer doing that. Cross your fingers and if you're on the board of an organisation I applied to: GIMME SOME DOUGH!

Hot surfer looking for waves at dawn
My current desktop background image

I'm still here

2006-12-17T15:07:00.000-05:00

Wow! I didn't realize it had been so long since I posted! I've been kind of busy with a new job, a new website, another new job and a new boyfriend. I've been meaning to post, but things have just been to hectic.

Look for a new post on Tuesday. Don't worry, I'm fine, just busy y'all.

P.

Anna Wintour is a Jedi Knight

2006-10-25T12:43:00.000-05:00

The dream:

Last evening Anna Wintour took the stage to deliver some speech when a group of people stood up in the crowded ballroom. They yelled at her and threw things at her. With a scream of "You got blood on my couture bitches!!!", she whipped out her light saber and rampaged through the crowd killing everyone who had yelled or thrown something at her. Blood was flying everywhere and it was scary as hell. Suddenly Tom Ford was there kissing her while groping my boyfriend's ass. I woke up.

Would someone please, please, please tell me what the hell this means?!?! Did I drop some acid before bedtime last night or something? I'm certain there are those who wonder how I even know who Anna Wintour and Tom Ford are considering my own lack of displayed style. I don't lack style, I simply don't like to display my tastes unless it is worth my time to do so.

Oh, to those who know me IRL: lost my phone and haven't replaced it yet. Call me tomorrow.

Flickr Hunks- My Photos Part 2

2006-10-24T10:39:00.000-05:00

I was hoping to get some more practice in surfing today, but it is a bit cool and I don't have a wetsuit yet. Anyway, here are a few more of my photos of the guys in and around FLL.

Flickr Hunks- My Photos

2006-10-23T07:35:00.000-05:00

Feast your eyes on some of the studs I've photographed in and around Fort Lauderdale. Most of them I don't know, since I haven't got any trouble pointing and clicking. Well, more like hefting since my camera is far from small!

I've been kind of busy workin on PornForPatric.net to get out much with the camera, but hopefully next month I'll have more time.

Read his towel :-)

Japanese R&B Video - MTV-PG13

2006-10-20T19:32:00.000-05:00

Yup, I'm still gay. I do have a couple lesbian friends who read my blog and this video is for them. Particulary on very naughty girl and her Japanese girlfriend :-) Funny that you can air a video like this in Japan, but not the US.

My heart makes me crazy

2006-10-19T06:18:00.000-05:00

Delicious D and I have been spending alot of time together. Some of it sexual and alot of it just talking, gettin to know each other better. I really like him, but my twelve piece emotional baggage is getting in my way.

I'm in that place where I'm trying not to compare everything to my last relationship. I don't want to start comparing things and I don't want to start thinking "He said that, but when The Ex said it, he really meant XYZ". It is almost like I have two personalities and one is all "He's a sweet, caring, honest man. Have fun and be happy" while the other one is all "All men are pigs. You're going to get hurt. Run away."

I dunno what to do! This inner conflict is insane. I know I should just enjoy it all and see where it goes, but I'm having trouble shutting up that other side which I know is just really my fear of being in another relationship. Do they make a pill for that? :-)

I wanna be on a cover with him like this some day (if I can get over all my insecurities):

Flickr Hottie Bunton

2006-10-18T11:19:00.000-05:00

smoke n3!
Originally uploaded by bunton.

This is Bunton an interesting fellow from Flickr.com. Bunton is a DJ and could be a model, since the boy is smokin' hot (no pun intended). Check his stuff out at: http://www.flickr.com/photos/bunton/

About last night

2006-10-14T08:53:00.000-05:00

Life is so strange. Y'all might remember Delicious D. (big arms, nice butt, perfect dick and megawatt smile) from a couple months ago. Well, I've been spending alot of time with him lately. I dunno if this is going down the boyfriend path or not. I'm hoping, but I don't want to count my chickens before they're hatched.

He's the first guy I've met since my breakup last year that I could actually see myself dating. He's intelligent, thoughtful, honest and fun to be around. He doesn't have the usual attitude of the guys in Ft. Lauderdale. We've talked to each other about each other which is great.

Last night I went over to his house and it was just wonderful. We sat around for a bit and took a nice long walk together. We got in his bed (FULLY CLOTHED!) and spooned for a bit. We both fell asleep and woke up five hours later, still spooning. It was heaven! Not a damn thing beats waking up in the golden light of sunrise with someone you're totally into.

Unfortunately, when I got home, my dog had gone through the trash, dragged all the stuff to one end of the bed, ate it and then barfed on the other end of the bed. I guess steam cleaning my matress first thing in the morning is the price I had to pay for last night. C'est la vie.

BTW, if you're a certain muscled someone who just found out that smurfs are three apples high, your penance for reading this will be to go to PornForPatric and join whichever site is most expensive!

Amateur Hunk's Wet Underwear Video

2006-10-13T19:03:00.000-05:00

If y'all haven't discovered AmateurHunk's blog, then y'all have been missin' out. Head on over this second to view his pics and his latest, hottest video to date.

http://amateurhunk.blogspot.com/

Bathroom Blowjob

2006-10-11T01:43:00.000-05:00

Yeah, this reminds me of a certain birthday party in South Beach. Giving head to the most exquisite straight Italian boy while his girlfriend banged on the door. She had no clue what we were doing in there, she just needed to pee. When we came out, we said we had been sharing a joint. :-)

From the BBC show Sinchronicity (a darn good show):

Hugging A Stranger

2006-10-06T09:41:00.000-05:00

We go out and try to meet strangers. We go out and fuck strangers. We talk to strangers. We curse at strangers. Why can't we hug strangers? Watch this video and then go to FreeHugs to find out more.

Weird wet dream

2006-10-04T06:38:00.000-05:00

WTF?!?! I had a very disturbing dream. I was having great sex with a guy on a beach. We were rolling all over the place, fucking like bunnies. He was riding me like crazy, then suddenly, we're in my old apartment and he's bent over the corner of the bed getting it doggie style. I cum and he says "It's okay, I'm fixed". Then I see his face, realize who I'm fucking and wake up. I reach under the comforter and there's spooge all over the place.

Now, I'm thinking the "It's okay, I'm fixed" came from watching Boogie Nights a few days ago. The beach fucking because I was down there riding my bike yesterday morning and saw the guys cruising around. The corner of the bed thing was my favourite way to fuck The Ex (his back would arch and you could see all the muscles straining which turned me on).

As for the friend thing, I have no freakin idea. He's very attractive, but I'm not looking to fuck him. I guess on some subconscious level I'd like to, but I don't fuck my friends. Does this mean that deep down, I want to throw him down and get busy? Is he just part of the mental regurgitation that was going on while I slept? Argh!

My Grandmother is a wise woman

2006-10-02T07:54:00.000-05:00

My Grandmother is a pot-smoking, hell-raising woman of 86. She and her "ExPats" have been known to frequent more than a few stripper bars, dropping their cashed in social-security cheques down the g-strings of men who are probably gay. I won't even get into their misguided (but loving) attempts to find me a man.

We were watching the news Sunday, when one of those 5-minute debates came up about Gay Marriage. Out of nowhere, she says to me, "Have you read Loving vs Virginia?". I'd heard of it, of course, but I'd never read the actual decision. She told me every gay man should read it, because it directly relates to our desire for marriage equality.

I'm not gonna post the entire thing here, but you can read this excerpt from Wikipedia:

"Marriage is one of the "basic civil rights of man," fundamental to our very existence and survival.... To deny this fundamental freedom on so unsupportable a basis as the racial classifications embodied in these statutes, classifications so directly subversive of the principle of equality at the heart of the Fourteenth Amendment, is surely to deprive all the State's citizens of liberty without due process of law. The Fourteenth Amendment requires that the freedom of choice to marry not be restricted by invidious racial discriminations. Under our Constitution, the freedom to marry, or not marry, a person of another race resides with the individual and cannot be infringed by the State."

Rock on Grandma and thanks for the info.

Freaky Calvin Klein commercial "Altered States"

2006-09-30T01:00:00.000-05:00

I put up this post on my website Porn for Patric and thought y'all might want to see it. It is freaky as hell and sort of reminds me of Madonna's Bedtime Story video.

http://www.pornforpatric.net/index.php/2006/09/28/watch-this/

I love this

2006-09-28T04:53:00.000-05:00

Today is the birthday of The Ex. Yeah, I woke up early to go workout and when I turned on the computer, Outlook popped up a message to remind me. I had managed to not think about it until I saw the little message. Haven't heard from him in months and don't think I ever will, although a "Hey, I'm alive and well" wouldn't kill him.

Anyway, here's a song that I'm not dedicating to him. I just like this song and when I found the video wanted to post it. I repeat, I'm not posting it because todays is that man's b-day.

EDIT: Okay, enough! No, I don't hate him. I guess Kelis' Caught Out There with the "I hate you so much right now" sent the wrong message. This video will send a messae I actually don't mind sending.

I have a new blog

2006-09-27T11:30:00.000-05:00

Hey y'all, I've started a new blog:

http://www.pornforpatric.net

Stop on over and take a gander. Don't worry, this blog will still be here and be continued to be updated.

If you're a whore...

2006-09-19T06:26:00.000-05:00

I just wanted to say a huge THANK YOU to my friend Scott for sending me a hilarious .mp3. We had this discussion last night about our "magic numbers" and mine was considerably higher than his. Heck, mine was a large multiple of his! I kept saying "I feel like such a whore". He sent me a great clip of Samantha Jones from Sex and The City saying "Oh, please! If you're a whore, WHAT DOES THAT MAKE ME?!?!" At least I haven't run out of men in my geographic area to fuck (which happened to my old roommate).

More posts soon. Working on a project that is devouring all my time.

Hurricane Katrina's Beauty

2006-08-25T15:16:00.000-05:00

Katrina was a devastating hurricane. Before it hit New Orleans, it swept through South Florida uprooting trees, ripping hole in roofs and knocking down powerlines. We were lucky to have been spared the full strength of Katrina which impacted New Orleans a few days later.

After boarding up the windows, bringing in the plants and crating the two stray cats that lived in my backyard, I took a drive through Fort Lauderdale. Sitting on the beach, I captured an image that shows that nature is strangely beautiful, even when she is about to be destructive.

What the fuck is going on?!?!

2006-08-24T03:14:00.000-05:00

Just to recap the last two days:

Didn't get a loan to buy the family business
Unemployed
Car broken down to the tune of $1,255.00
New cell phone isn't working, so sent back to Sprint
Severe breakout of eczema due to stress

The only light at the end of the tunnel for me right now is that I've been asked to submit 20 prints to a gallery. Okay, I'm gonna go back to bed now, get some sleep and wake up to a better day. Tonight is $3 Long Island Ice Tea at Georgie's Alibi and I intend to go and drown my troubles (even if I have to ride my bike there!).

Enjoy this eye-candy.

In Honour of WhatBlog

2006-08-22T04:23:00.000-05:00

Sorry to say, but RJ has decided to close his blog. Because it is 5AM and I'm only up out of habit and because The Dog required a stroll, consider this a temporary entry. More when I'm conscious.

Man, oh man...I need a man

2006-08-19T01:02:00.000-05:00

I think one of the hardest things about being single is not having a ready sexual partner. Well, that's one hard thing, the other is the lack of physical intimacy. I like having someone to hold in bed. I like having someone to lay next to me on the sofa while watching a movie. One of the things I miss about The Ex is just holding him. I loved those quick touches when we passed each other in the house. The way he would come up behind me while I was cooking and just hold me for a second from behind. I need physical intimacy in my life. I tried having a "cuddle buddy" and I enjoyed it, but it wasn't the same. He also wanted it to go sexual, and I wasn't looking for that.

I suppose, what I need to do is get out there and find a man. My only trouble is that I can't seem to meet a guy that interests me. There are alot of guys to whom I'm physically or sexually attracted, but not both. I'm also having a hard time because I compare any guy I meet to The Ex (yeah, I know I shouldn't do it). Still, it is hard not to do that. I don't know. Maybe there's a guy out there for me. Maybe I should wait longer before I start dating again. I'm just not sure if I'll ever meet anyone to love again. I don't know if after The Ex, I'll ever be able to open my heart up 100% to anyone. Still, who knows what the future holds.

On a non-man related note, I'm going to be opening a new website soon. Not sure if it will be the same as my old site or not. I'm thinking more along the lines of a site to display my photography and sell prints. We'll see.

I'll leave you guys with a few more photos. Oh, be sure to check out Oh La La Paris who have been nice enough to list me twice on their blog. Tons of very good links and pics of hotties.

Boys on Boards

2006-08-11T12:13:00.000-05:00

Much thanks to the guys at Oh La La Paris for mentioning my blog and featuring some of my photos. I kind of had an idea they had featured me when I suddenly went from 20-30 hits and hour to 600 hits in one hour!

Interesting days lately. Got an e-mail from The Ex about taking down my letter to him. I just don't want to. I don't see how ~~my replacement~~ his new love is gonna find this blog. Besides, he despises anyone hiding things from him, so I'm sure he wouldn't want to hide anything from anyone.

On to other things. I notice a certain local blogger is on the front page of The 411 Magazine website. Before anyone rushes to check, it isn't me.

I'm trying to work on a pornstar interview, but we'll see what happens. So far, so good, but scheduling has turned out to be a pain in the butt. However, if I want it to happen, it will (I'm an extremely determined person).

Okay, back to slaving away. I leave y'all with some surf photos that didn't make it onto the Oh La La Paris blog. Enjoy!

300mm of pleasure

2006-08-06T22:30:00.000-05:00

It is long. It is black. It is so very hard. When I twist it, it gets longer and longer and longer. I think I'm in love with it. "It" is my new 300 mm lens. Yeah, I finally decided that it wasn't easy to shoot street photography from afar and dudes surfing with my 150mm. Still, that 150mm will get tons of use.

Boring kinda life lately. Hooked up with a guy from manhunt.net the other day and that was a terrible, terrible experience. Look, if you're tweaked out on meth just let me know in advance so I can cross you off my "to do list". I think every guy online is some sort of meth addict these days. It just seems that everytime I do an online "dial-a-dick", it ends up with some tweaked out guy.

I hit the beach today and had some fun photographing the surfers. I need to find a gay surfer to date. All those guys are so nice and totally laid back, which is the kind of guy I need.

Here's a bit more of my photography, which I hope y'all like. Feel free to leave a comment! Oh, if you're a certain local blogger known for his good looks and pleasant demeanor; I want to photograph you and I've only got 7 days left to do it!

Believe it, or not, this is my dentist!

Useless Vacation & BBB (big black butt)

2006-08-03T11:12:00.000-05:00

I'm on vacation for two weeks. However, I havn't left town and I've gone to work almost every day this week to regrease machines, clean out the ovens, repaint, re-tile and re-line the parking lot. The rest of my days, I'm fixing up my mother's new condo, which is freakin' huge and way too high up for me.

I just want to get out of town for even a few day so badly! I'm jus thinking it isn't gonna happen. As much as I want to go, I know I'm just going to spend the time here working on stuff.

I was hoping to photograph some people while I'm on vacation, but my "models" have disappeared from the Earth. Hopefully, that storm comes close by this weekend and I can get some good shots of the people surfing.

Those of you who had seen my website (still not sure about reopening) might remember a well hung black man with a huge butt. Well, he's since moved on to making movies for Miami Studios as Luis Taylor. I found a couple of old "artistic" shots of him and thought y'all might like to see 'em.

Simon Rex Raps (and shows a wee bit of buttcrack)

2006-08-01T21:50:00.000-05:00

Okay, I haven't posted in a bit. Unfortunately, I've been pretty sick and I'm just now getting better. I don't think going to work everyday with a fever, cough and laryngitis helped much.

Anyway, for your visual and auditory pleasure, I present Simon Rex a/k/a DJ McDirtyNasty. Trust me. Watch this and laugh your ass off.

I had to remove the embedded player. It was slowing down page loading. Just click the following link to be taken to the video: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OTu6VAIHE24

Sick. Twisted. Wrong... I LOVE IT!

2006-07-25T23:42:00.000-05:00

Okay, I was looking for a video of a Helio since I'm thinking about buying one, but found this instead. Apparently, Amp'd decided death and prostitution was a good way to sell phones.

If anyone out there is using a Helio and reads this, give me a shout and let me know what you think of them and their service. Of course, if you work in the marketing department of Helio, feel free to send me a free phone and I'll totally whore myself out to promote you :-)

SpermCube

2006-07-24T14:24:00.000-05:00

Imagine it, 1000 liters of ejaculate frozen in a transparet tube for all to see! An artist in France wants men all over the world to jack off into test tubes and send it to him so he can pour the whole lot into a big transparent cube and then flash freeze it. The biggest cube of cum ever! Then again, how many cubes of cum have there been...outside of a Damon Dogg video I mean.

Take a look at this site SpermCube.Org for all the details. You know, I have the strangest feeling Philippe Meste is a strange French translation for Paul Morris

Oh, any yes...I sent away for my own personal donation kit :-)

2006-07-20T18:39:00.000-05:00

Hmmm...haven't blogged in a while. I have tons of stuff written as drafts, but haven't posted any.

Been an interesting week. I photographed a guy on Sunday, went out on a date on Monday that went nowhere. I mean, we're talking the living dead here. He was so freakin' boring! Other than a mutal love of photography, there just isn't anything there.

Tuesday, I went with an Indonesian friend to Georgie's Alibi for a drink. After he left, I had that little tingle and walked inside to find my old roomate from South Beach, Ryan was in town from Canada. So, I sat down with the Asian Sensation (Ryan's a Chinese Trini), his friends and some guy I think I may have slept with, but neither of us mentioned it. It was so great to see him again and as God is my witness, I will drag my ass up to the frozen white north...well, Canada and see him in November.

Wednesday, I was doing laundry when Delicious D. showed up. Now Delicious D. is this guy who I've occasionally played with. Cute as hell, little waist, juicy bootie and these arms that are just perfect. He also has a perfect dick and I happen to like sucking perfect dicks...it works all around. Ended up going back to his house and had some fun. He's got the most beautiful house and hopefully I can get his ass to move back to wherever he comes from and sell it to me. I think he's an oral only guy and I was hoping with an ass like that he'd be a bottom, but we'll see what happens.

Oh, unfortunately, my niece's dog died after being hit by a car. I felt so bad, since she had personally selected it as a birthday present and loved the little thing dearly. I was a bit surprised to see her talking about it on the news, though. Yeah, a news crew went over and did a segment on it. Argh! I got no less than 4 phone calls (Hey man, your sister's on TV!).

Hmm...should I be good and stay in tonight or go out to Georgie's and have some $3 20 oz. Long Island Iced Tea? Decisions, decisions. Okay, a long blog post, with no web links, really, so I'll throw this your way and hope y'all enjoy it. I called it "Shakira Naked On The Wall". It is a piece of public art in Miami's Design District.

Freaky Friday

2006-07-15T22:06:00.000-05:00

I'll make this a brief one, since I'm about to head over to play slots at the Hard Rock.

Met a guy at a porno shop (yeah, that got your attention bitches). We have a mutal friend in the counter person, that's all. Anyway, I go down the beach at sunset with him and take his photo. Unfortunately, we got there late and I only got off a few shots before we had to pack it up. We're gonna try again on Sunday. One of the two good shots:

So, I drop him back home, go home and walk Doggie only to pass out in front of Stargate. Wake up in the middle of the night and Doggie is yakking on my pillow. Get up to change it and realize she's yakked all over the bed. End up going to Gateway Laundromat where I interrupt some amateur filming in progress. Now, I'm not sure what they were filming since two of the girls are dressed up as sex kittens and the third girl is a dominatrix. Took a couple photos, walked past the Schubert (hey, I'm single and like to mingle) and end up chatting with an insane American Indian bisexual who is drunk as hell and keeps asking me if I have any change and if I want a swig of his Schlitz Malt Liquor.

Okay, get the fuck outta there and on the way back home, pass this cute guy walking. He gives me a look, I think "U-Turn!" and drive around the block to get back to him when he reaches the next corner. I get there and don't see him. Suddenly he steps outta the bushes buck naked! Now, this is one freakin' block off Sunrise and not exactly a very quiet street. Okay, cute, nicely equipped and gave me a good view of his bootie which was just right. I just said, "Later man" and thanked God for the good jackoff material. Yeah, I've done it here, there and everywhere with a significant fraction of the world's male population. Still, even I'm not gonna plow some guy who strips naked in the streets to pick up guys at 1 in the morning!

Anyway, got a kind a good shot on a 30 second exposure coming home. Take a look and enjoy if it is your type of thing. If I win big, I'll buy you all a hotdog :-)

Cuddle Buddies

2006-07-10T02:14:00.000-05:00

Someone wanted to know if I wanted to become their "cuddle buddy". We're both single with no prospect of romance on the horizon. We're both very physical people (very touch feely in a nonsexual way with people). I'm just wondering, can you be a "cuddle buddy" and not have it slip into something sexual? He's very attractive, but I don't want to have sex with him, just cuddle with him.

I admit, I've been sort of longing for someone to just lay on the sofa with and watch a movie or just lounge around with. I like the idea of laying on the sofa and just wrapping my arms around someone. I turned down someone who wanted to be a "cuddle buddy" with me a few months ago because I knew what he wanted wasn't physical closeness but sex. I just wanted that physical closeness, not a sexual relationship.

Would this just be something to keep me from getting into a relationship since I'd have the physical closeness I love already? Or is this a healthy way to enjoy physical closeness with someone I like?

Jeez, this is just too confusing for me.

Oh, found this link while looking for info: http://www.cuddlepartysf.com/
and this one http://www.cuddleparty.com/
(not planning a cuddle party, was just looking for information about the whole cuddle buddy thing)

This always makes me cry

2006-07-08T23:44:00.000-05:00

I don't know why, but this scene from Beautiful Thing always makes me cry. Don't worry, this isn't gonna be a video filled blog. I just wanted to share this one.

Hunks & Hangovers

2006-07-07T22:12:00.000-05:00

Part of this post was written while under the influence of a gigantic Long Island Iced Tea and a Mailbu and OJ. So forgive any misspellings and poor grammar.

So, Thursday was an interesting day for me. I hit the jam packed Thursday at Georgie's Alibi to meet up with fellow SoFla blogger RJ to help him ring in his 43rd year. Unfortunately, I was so late getting back from Miami, I barely had time to walk the dog, shower, munch a protein bar and hit the road. I got there before he did and ended up hanging out with Lush #1, Lush #2 and Lushette. I love my friends, but some of them are seriously hard drinking bitches.

I have to give RJ his props. Yeah, he's got the muscles, the hot ass, the super smile and everything else you just expect to see on guys here. He's also got one extremely rare quality in SoFla: he's a good guy. He's nice, polite and he's just got this really positive energy about him. He's not catty, bitchy, whiny or anything like that. It was nice to hang with someone cool and fun with a brain and no attitude. A fresh of breath air that man is. His ex was there as well and he was nice as well. I wouldn't say it in front of RJ, but DAMN! His ex is phine! He's also a fellow clarinet player and you know us black band geeks gotta stick together. :-)

One sour note was a guy called me that I honestly don't know that well. He was apparently working his way down his cellphone since he was out in the parking lot a bit past tipsy. Now, I'm not one for hanging with people who've had too much, but I'll give him credit for trying to find a ride home instead of driving himself. I bid RJ and his ex a good night and sat down with this fellow, Buck to wait out his alcohol. I found out later that RJ hit the Ramrod and entered the Bulge Contest. Argh! I miss out on that to babysit a drinker :-( Still, it was the right thing to do and I'd hope in the unlikely event I was in his shoes someone would wait out my alcohol with me. I'm still not sure how he had my number since the last time I talked to him was about 8 months ago about the election campaign he was working on.

Okay, I'm at Gateway laundromat and I've gotta get back to the laundry. Y'all be good and have fun this weekend. This weekend will be dull for me with the exception of the gangbang I'm photographing this Sunday at a porno shop. Hey, for $100 and hour, I'd photograph paint drying and you would too so don't hate!

Assless

2006-07-06T09:30:00.000-05:00

Okay, it isn't what you think. The straight muscleboy who lives across the river and comes over to get plowed has decided to marry his chick. Honestly, I'm not sure how that's gonna work out, but hope he'll be happy. I'm just pissed off because it isn't like hot straight boys looking for an ass filling are dime a dozen. Still it was nice while it lasted.

On a happier note, the good news of the day:

J., a model I first photographed 2 yeas ago (sweet guy, perfect ass, THICK dick) has gotten an offer to shoot for Flavamen and some of his photos will hopefully make it into Inches or Latin Inches.

Happy birthday wishes to RJ! who I still can't belive is 43 today.

Happy pre-birthday wishes to Wah, the biggest, thickest and most bootylicious asian model I've ever seen.

One more birthday shoutout to Corin over at thecorky.com who hit a very hot 39 this week. Be sure to check out his site for a link to his newest Titan video.

A most serious "thank you" to all the kind men who pulled out their dicks in bars, parking lots and on the beach this past week. I sent all the photos to The Rimmer and hopefully, Guido will put them in the next issue.

Open Letter to James (The Ex)

2006-07-05T03:08:00.000-05:00

This was originally written in a semi-drunken state after a rather wild night out with friends. Despite that, I'm just going to put it out there as it is. Read it if you want. Don't read it if you don't want to. Either way, here it is for the world to see.

Dear James,

Well, it has been a year since you left me to "find yourself" and "discover if you could make it as an individual and not as part of a couple". The last year has been hard on me emotionally, physically and financially.

First, losing you was incredibly hard on me emotionally. When we got together I wasn't sure if I could actually let myself love someone again after what had happened in my previous relationship. I let my guard down, let you into my life and you left me. You left me after all those years and went straight into the arms of someone else. Yeah, so much for "finding yourself". I thought I was important to you even after the breakup. I told people "oh, we'll be friends, there's too much between us. You can't just chuck all that love". I realized after Hurrican Wilma I didn't mean much to you after all. You never called to ask if I was okay or even alive. You never wondered if my business had come through okay. I would think the fact that an oak tree was inside of my house might lead you to wonder about my wellbeing, but I guess not. Even then, I still cared about you. Even when Thanksgiving, Christmas, New Years and my fucking birthday passed without a word from you. Then a call, just to let me know that you didn't think we should keep in contact since your new partner didn't like it. Thanks. That was nice.

The hardest part of all of this is that over the last year I've thought of you just about every fucking day and it fucking kills me! You dropped my ass like a lava rock straight out of the volcano, but I can't get past you and move on. A year later and I still miss you. I still sleep on "my side of the bed". I wonder how you're doing. If life is treating you well. I wonder if he loves you as much as I do, even after all the pain you've caused me. I think I may be permanently broken. I think I've crazy glued my heart together twice and there isn't going to be a third time.

On the plus side, I've found a nice new apartment. Cool neighbours and Lucy Doggie has a bit of grass to run around on and catch a tan. My car is finally completely road worthy and things are improving at work. If you had been in contact with me you'd have know I had the surgery and my heart is perfectly normal now. No more cardioversions and no more PVCs. Made some new friends. Been doing more freelance photography. Traveled a bit more than I did with you. Went skydiving, bungee jumping, diving, jet skiing, water skiing (it ripped 1/2 the hairs off my legs!).

I don't have a man in my life. I've gone out on a couple dates, but nobody is very interesting to me. Honestly, I just "dial a dick" when I need to get off since I've managed to find 3 good fuckbuddies, but alas no boyfriend. Although, having had that HIV scare after you barebacked with that Marine in Key West makes me just a tad nervous about sleeping with anyone these days. Still negative here and planning to stay that way. You'll be happy to know that I don't think you gave me the HPV you caught since I haven't had any sort of outbreaks. Still that sucker could lay dormant for years before something happens so I'll just have to wait a while before I can have a coming out party for it! Just to recap, you 1) Exposed me to HPV and then 2) Had unsafe sex with a stranger while we were on vacation and then continued to have unprotected sex with me. Yeah, you sooooooo loved me. Still, I wasn't entirely without fault. I did photograph someone nude in the house without your permission. I can understand how you were upset by that since it really does compare with the HPV and HIV scare.

Why can't I fucking get over you? Why can't I just let your damned memory go? You obviously are over me and don't give a shit about me so why can't I just get over you and no longer care anything about you? How did you do it? How did you just move on so fast from me and erase me from your heart? What is your secret to moving on?

My own private Year of Hell has come to a close. I'm hoping the next one is the one where I don't think about you everyday. The year I don't wish you well all the time. The year I can just go someplace we used to go together and not think about how we used to go there. The year I'm content to be without you. The year where I can finally say....

Goodbye James

Is God laughing at me?

2006-06-28T23:47:00.000-05:00

I don't know what to think. Okay, I get dumped a almost a year ago. I have nothing but bad ups and downs for months. Now, just as things are sort of going my way, BOOM another upheaval in my life. Argh! Enough already. C'mon God, throw me some slack. Let work be wonderful and successful. Let me go on a date with a guy who doesn't vomit on me (he had food poisoning) or ask me if I'm "really huge down there" twenty minutes into it (he'll never know).

I moved into a new place about a month ago and I've this adorable neighbour. He's been over alot, talking to me about his recent breakup and I've been sort of trying to get him to see that it was an ending, but not the end of his life. Thing is, he's freakin' adorable! Torture me, why don't ya? I don't see anything happening between us, but if you saw him and talked to him (his attractiveness is both physical and intellectual), you'd want to jump his ass too.

On the plus side, I finally got to meet RJ a hot local blogger. Sweet Jeebus! Not only is the man hotter than the solar corona, but he's a nice guy. Talk about your total packages. He was at the Stonewall Street Festival a couple Sundays ago and just after I had taken a photo of someone I thought was him, he came walking down the street. Definitely check out his "Half Naked Thursdays" which are always fun.

Oh, one other plus is that some of the photos I took at Pridefest are being featured on a couple websites. HereTV has a "Pride Around America" blog with some of my photos up, and Beasley Uncut which is an interesting collection of gossip, naked men, pornstars and local hotstuffs. I think I might have a mention in Hotspots Magazine as well, but who knows. I'm gonna throw a few photos in at the end of this blog, so y'all can vicariously share in the joys of Ft. Lauderdale's Pride (such as it is).

Argh! Okay, time for me to get to bed. 2:30 in the morning and I've got to be up in 5 hours. I promise that future posts won't be so dreary and I'll try to keep my bitching to a polite minimum. If you bought that last sentence, bend over....I'm just gonna put the head in :-)

Peeking my head out of the sand

2006-06-27T03:23:00.000-05:00

So, my site went down. I didn't bring it back up. I sort of got burned out on the blogging thing when I realized my ex was keeping track of me through my blog. Yeah, even though he didn't want to speak with me, since his new boyfriend feel somehow threatened by his being in contact with me. Whatever.

Well, I'm back now. There will be some pics, prose and general BS coming your way in the near future so: WATCH THIS SPACE!